I am 26 years young, & in 5 months ahead, I'll be 27.
Today is totally a great day..A simple meaningful day that tells me how fabulous my life can be.
Today, I started my day with a simple routine of Fajar Prayer with a simple continuance of Mathurat recite.
I was having a medium fever, flu and even again, sore throat...
But I'm fine..Alhamdulillah..(A prayer to Allah SWT, I'm still here, happily sharing my stories)
I've went to the Public Medical Centre (Pusat Kesihatan Awam), just nearby my house.& again, to get a check up on my previous case (it's in my previous post)...
Yaa...It's been a month I've gone through with that..
Finally, the doctor just told me; It's Asthma, You must be having an Asthma...Since it is in your family (My dad side has the history of Asthma)..Well, that's what doctor told me...
So Fyruzs, you are now have what we called an Asthma.
After all I've been through with part and parcel, only now I was got to know that I have Asthma..
Just a few days back, I just gotten to know that I had been having my eyes vision problem..& I got powers too...It's 50 for both side...It's kind of a little bit shocking and unready..But I'm not that devastated..I begin to believe that I'm IN....yes I'm in the adult club..well I knew I was an adult several years ago..But this time I really feel that I'm totally IN...
How do I feel? Hmmm It's feel strange at first but I'm getting used to it now..
Today is an MC day for me...So I get to use my time, to get enough rest & even watch movies that I copied from my sisters in my hard drive.I was managed to finish three movies but SEX IN THE CITY 2 really catch my attention more than the other two movies...
It is the scene,when Claire told her husband about her accidentally kiss with her ex boyfriend.
It was actually happen while she and her girls were having a fabulous holiday in Dubai.
She choose to be honest.
And it was possibly cost her a huge damage to her wonderful marriage.
But again & still, she choose to be honest & true to her husband..
It makes me feel how wonderful and fabulous my life can be If I could strongly believe in myself. What am I saying right now? Am I not believing myself enough currently?
Well, I've always choose and always do be straight & honest even I know things are going to kill or even hurt me in any way..I'm not trying to say that I am that PIOUS..but that's what I am.. I felt secure & free if I can express and present myself in honesty & genuine way...I know somehow it would create hatred between people around me. That's something I have to adhere about being myself...& most of the time, It hurts...It's really do..
People around you just ignore or even pretend they never see you, because you are so honest when you are expressing your thoughts..well, at least I'm being honest.That's what I used to tell myself, trying to get rid of being blame on my ownselve. Well, how could you possibly keep your heart so in hurts, aching like the fire bomb is going to explode when some strangers are pushing your rights and totally being ignorance of your existence.
I'm not trying to be what we called so defensive here,far, far away from pretending to be so perfect for everyone or everytime.BUT
Hey!! I'm here, pursuing my daily routine, staying at the same roof as you..& I let you use my washing machine, my television or anything in the house...Well you name it girl....& it's all FREE Of CHARGE & I'm honestly very happy, if you are being able to share that luxury, well it's not really that luxury ... a little Convenience,perhaps in that house with humanity..I don't expect a THANK YOU words coming out from your mouth..Well not even once...But at least, mind yourself about use it wisely, handle it with care or I would say, please have some of civic mind of others belonging..Could you?? & when people told you that you are suppose to at least have a mind on peoples belonging, you should at least face it girl...STOP being so ignorance or even so offensive about adjusting your personal issues ..
I knew RESPECT is something that we earn, not something that we asking for..BUT Please...There's humanity emotions in yourself..Use it..
I've been through this since early this year..& it's all because I'm stupidly being so honest on my words when we were talking about my rights in that house..
Excuse me?? Am I just saying stupidly honest?? & now being honest is becoming a bad thing to me??..
Oh No, No..It's totally NOT...I'm not stupidly being so honest,I'm just being myself, I can't practice of saying things behinds other peoples back!!..That's wrong...& That's so Unprofessional & CHEAP...
& now, I can't being more than believe in myself..& currently I really mean to put my faith in myself for 101 percent, if there is such percentage as 101 percent out of overall..
It's almost 12.30am in the midnight..I'm going to sleep..& I'm going to have a damn fabulous sleep...
Love,
Fyruzs Mustafa...
